Wednesday, April 16, 2008

The Naked Stare

I just had one of those moments. When I am in the bathroom and after letting the water wash away the soap from my face, I lift my chin to catch my eyes in the mirror. I stay there. I look so long and so deep into my own eyes that I can see my reflection inside my reflection inside my reflection - all in my pupils...in and out..they get bigger and smaller...the water drips down my face. I stay there. I talk to God.

Have you ever stared into your own eyes so long, so closely that your face becomes distorted? That you no longer see your form anymore? You see something else. Someone else. That is where I got today. I used to do it a lot when I was a little girl. This is my best time to talk to God. And it is funny- with all the fear and anxiety and stress that I am experiencing right now- there was a calm there- inside my eyes. And I saw a woman who has so much to do.

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